the waiting game

i feel like my life has been at a standstill for the last week

stop. back up. not my life, my future.

life has been going. filled with lots of activities

park days

birthday parties and nature hikes

they tend to happen simultaneously with this friend

saving plastic people

spending time with Papa

realizing we ALWAYS imitate our parents in some way, shape, or form

shooting guns

swinging on tires

getting sick swinging on tires

getting sick watching people swing on tires

spending time with precious family

fighting over watermelon

more guns

and packing lots of boxes

YET.

STANDSTILL.

because we still have yet to find out 

where we will be living

you forget how precious an address is

until you have none

my address is my security in so many ways

so many sinful ways

this has been my greatest struggle these last seven days

every morning I wake up 

completely anxious

YET.

God has been speaking to my heart

and I've been hearing His voice

As quickly as my thoughts begin to question things

 doubt things

scripture and hymns pop into my mind to set me straight

as quickly as my thoughts intend to say "my hope, is that we get a place today"

I only get as far as saying "MY HOPE"

because i'm interrupted with

"is built on nothing less, than Jesus blood and righteousness" - hymn

When I cry out, "Lord, I am so anxious"

The Holy Spirit responds,

"be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication with Thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God" - Philippians 4:6

When i go to bed, feeling the stand-still

despairing about the stand-still

my devotional reads

"Stand still, and see the salvation of the Lord." - Exodus 14:13

so during the standstill 

that is my job

to just STAND STILL

"wait for the Lord" Psalms says....about a billion times by the way

"Our soul waits for the Lord; He is our help and our shield. 

For our heart is glad in Him, because we trust in his holy name." Psalm 33:20-21

so I wait

some days with a glad heart

some days struggling to keep one

But let me be clear

there are also times 

where we should not wait

1. if you're not a follower of Jesus, and you've been thinking about becoming one

DON'T WAIT.

DO IT.

2. If you are a follower of Jesus, but have been living in some sin, and thought about stopping

DON'T WAIT.

DO IT.

3. If the Lord has put something on your heart, but fear has been holding you back.

DON'T WAIT.

DO IT.

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