Saturday, September 22, 2012

one of those days

yesterday was one of those days
the kind Alexander wrote about
In fact I'm going to apologize for my tone right now
because I might be a little annoyed

oh don't worry I wasn't annoyed when I was woken up at 4 a.m.
by the warm sensation of my daughter's pee on back

and I wasn't annoyed when she began screaming at me 
to get her food

I also wasn't annoyed when she got upset that she couldn't watch Mickey Mouse clubhouse
because Xfinity on demand decided to make me pay for that now
and unfortunately the D-channel doesn't air Mickey at 4am

Oh and I wasn't annoyed that I only had $1 left on my laundry card so I
had to walk to the school to go put more money on it
so I could finally clean my soiled sheets and pillowcase

And I'm not at all annoyed that I have to keep telling Haley not to drink the rain water on the slide

ok, maybe just a bit

All this to say, there have been a couple days like this

and that's why I haven't written for a while

But despite my day, God is so good to me

because its these days where I get the opportunity to show grace to my toddler when she screams

its these days when I get the opportunity to to actually exercise patience instead of just thinking about it

and its these kinds of days that I'm reminded that i fail 

in all of these areas and that is exactly why I need a Savior

And my Savior is good

because He does turn mourning into dancing

He takes sad times

like the death of my husband's grandpa

to a joyous occasion 

because he's now with Jesus

He takes an impossible amount of money, like $25,000

and provides it in mere weeks


I haven't been a faithful blogger, so I haven't said much about it since July

but know this

prayers from a little church began to go out in early summer

giving for this mission began in mid summer

and the guys left last week


And I love Him

 even when I wake up at 4 in the morning

1 comment:

  1. oh man. i get it.
    sometimes you just have to pause and take a step back and see what God is doing. like you did.
    it sure does help from being realllllly annoyed. ;)